My New Book

Wonder of wonders, I am writing another book. If you had asked me last fall if that would ever happen, I would have bet you a million dollars that it would not.

But it is happening. The better way to say it is that there is a new book asking to be written through me. So, I’ve been listening and writing for the last six months, dividing it into two parts. A couple of days ago, I was working on part two, 50 pages of creativity that had taken five months to come to life.

There was a poem I decided to cut from the second part and paste into the first. I highlighted it, and much to my dismay, everything was deleted except for the poem! I clicked on the undo arrow, and nothing happened!! I closed and reopened the file, hoping to see the entire file. Alas, there was only the poem.

My mind went into overwhelm and then a meltdown. But I have been awakening long enough to know that any state that causes me to tighten is not the truth. So, I got up, went to my meditation room, sat down, closed my eyes, and began breathing in and out through my heart. Of course, my mind would go back to the devastation of losing half the book, but I kept gently and persistently bringing it back to the heart breath.

The heart is such a phenomenal healer, and waking it up through my breath quieted my mind enough that I could ride the waves of my breath rather than follow my struggling mind into its meltdown. It took almost 20 minutes for my reactive mind to calm down enough for me to reconnect with the heart intelligence we truly are. Of course, there were moments of reaction, then a moment of remembering, then a few more moments of reaction, then more moments of remembering.

As I stayed with it and the reactionary mind let go, I again connected with the truth that there are no accidents on this journey of awakening. In other words, I remembered that life is for me, and there is something much smarter than me in charge. It then became clear that the most important thing I could do at that moment was to turn it over to life. I began by acknowledging the loss and then asking life, “What are you showing me here?”

I then got ready for bed, and a few minutes after I settled in, I had the thought, “Well, I could Google how to find erased files.” (Remember, I am not even remotely tech savvy!)

Much to my amazement, it provided the steps to locate the erased file. Relief! But it was all in red with lines through every word because it had been erased. So, I called my computer guy, and he came the next night, and with much finagling, he was able to hand me the full, unadulterated file.

Why am I telling you this story? Life is full of challenges, pain, and suffering. And we all have been deeply conditioned to react, and reaction has a tendency to pull us into the quicksand of struggle. I did react. I don’t think we can ever stop that, for minds react. But with the help of my heart breath, the clouds of reaction calmed, and I was able to listen again and receive the vast intelligence that is always with me, no matter what is happening in my life.

This challenge showed me again how to respond to life rather than get caught in reaction. And if you are like me, you have to relearn this over and over again.

If this interests you, when you’re not triggered about something in your life, sit down, close your eyes, and then bring your attention to the amazing river breath that has been moving through you since the moment you were born. And then imagine breathing in and out through your heart, allowing your inbreath and your outbreath to be the same length.

Studies say that six seconds in and six seconds out is the most beneficial, but trust your breath. Maybe yours is three or four seconds in and three or four seconds out. Do this without any expectation; let it be something you nourish yourself with daily. And slowly and surely, you will calm down your mind’s addiction to struggle so you can have greater access to the wisdom of your heart and the joy of being fully alive.

If this resonated with you, I invite you to join us on July 14th for my Free Night: The Amazing Strength in Vulnerability. We will discuss: We have somehow equated vulnerability with weakness, but the opposite is true. Join Mary in exploring the power of vulnerability and all the gifts it can bring into your life. Click HERE to register!

And as always, I invite you to listen to my podcast on Dreamvisions 7 Radio: The Gifts of Illness. It will air on Thursday, June 25^th and July 2nd at 5am and 5pm HERE. After July 2nd, it will be available on demand, along with every other podcast I’ve ever done HERE. Please feel free to explore my catalog and listen to topics that call to you.